A lot has happened since my last post.
I will start with my dreams: Had a series of nightmares (!) starting with one in which my cat was loping along beside my car on an entrance ramp to an interstate. I opened the car door, but he continued to run onto the interstate, which was filled with speeding traffic! He disappeared and I desperately was looking for him. I saw his tail drifting in the breeze generated by the passing traffic, which disturbed me to the point of waking up.
The very next night I dreamt I was passing through a school building with white walls. There was a funeral going on, and I was apparently unintentionally intruding. There were several big burly guys with beards there. The biggest burliest guy singled me out and started to accost me. It looked like I was about to fight him. I was fleeing the scene when I woke up.
There was another disturbing dream a couple nights later.
It's essentially unprecedented for me to have such a string of disturbing dreams! Usually it's random nonsense which I quickly forget. I am recording these dreams a week after they occurred. These episodes have clung to my memory.
But, the big news for the end of June into July is the igniting of a most passionate love affair with someone I never suspected had it in her. It has rocked my world! It has violently plucked me from the clutches of any doldrummy depression which was plaguing me, and propelled me into a bright shiny new happy world. She reached out to me after we had a chance meet in a grocery store of all places.
I cannot adequately describe my feelings here. I can say I will pursue this with all I have, for as long as it works for her. She fully deserves every bit of pleasure and happiness I can bestow upon her. A part of me thinks that because this has come to pass, I can now die happy!
I am grateful she reached out!
