I awoke with anxiety this morning. Have had a couple of bizarre dreams two recent nights. One occurred a week or two after I executed my breakup with my gf. She was in the dream. She called and said she and her hockey playing kids were coming over to play a hockey match at my house. I responded that I don't have a rink. I was living in a very big house with a large living room. She told me to check the perimeter of my floor and look for a seam and to start lifting the floor up. I did. Turned out I had an ice rink under my living room floor. They arrived and got ready to skate. It was then that the bizarreness of the dream woke me up.
Fast forward a few nights... I returned from what might be a disastrous visit I made in attempt to win the affection of a woman I delayed my response to as I attempted to break up with the current gf. It sent the wrong signals, and she may not be interested anymore. The thoughts precipitated a dream sequence of me traveling a street nightly (or early morning) as if I was commuting. Along my route I saw a sequence of women who either ignored me or gave me frightened or surprised looks as I passed them. Time passed, and their hair got grayer and grayer. I had some thought I should say hello, be friendly, do something kind for them. I never had the chance. I woke up.
I was dating 2 women. Now, due to my foolish and selfish maneuvers. It looks like I am dating no one. I am like the fox in the fox and the grapes fable. I get what I deserve.
God have mercy on me.
