Through more frequent visits to a counselor, maintaining a decent workout schedule, and reaching out on a dating app, I have significantly improved my state of mind, and recorded several interesting dreams...
Biking, which I did daily immediately after my breakup, I cut back on due to extra hours at work. A colleague broke his foot and we covered for him over 6 weeks. I gave the finger to motorists who left their brights on oncoming into me, blinding me. Other than that, biking has been satisfying. the bike is aging. The index shifter for the front derailleur won't click into 3rd gear. I can't see a fix. It's just worn out.
This counselor I am seeing has had good advice for me which I could act on. The cognitive behavior slant he approaches from was easy for me to wrap my head around. Thoughts => feelings => behaviors. Change one element of the chain, and the others should change too. A simple parting comment, "be kind to yourself," proved more helpful, too.
I met a woman on a dating app who clicked with me eventually. We are an item now. She is talkative and wise enough that stuff she said inspired me to craft a detente with my ex, which is improving my morale. I owe her. She is a valuable part of my life. I have forgiven and forgotten my last relationship.
Dreams:Was on a college campus with my daughter. She talked with lots of people and generally seemed to be a social butterfly. We visited multiple places on campus. She even addressed crowds, while wearing swim goggles, swimsuit, cap, and a towel draped over her shoulders.
Dreamed about giving cunnilingus, woke up quickly!
Dreamed about fanning out in a slum protecting a blond woman who was selling door to door. Encountered a guy. I tore his mask off. His face looked just like the mask.
Good month so far. Hope it continues...
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